As previously promised, I am finally making an honest woman out of myself. I'm catching up with me real amount of days sober. I have the day off of work today. That is why I posted so late last night Big Sis ;)
For anyone who read Day 12 in the early morning of Wednesday April 7th, please reread. I read it this morning and what a disaster! I rewrote it. I fell asleep at the computer several times and just hit 'publish' with out proof reading.
I have been extremely fortunate the first week and a half. I've dodged all the typical withdrawal symptoms that can haunt a recovering alcoholic. I was fine until Day 10. I have developed a few symptoms. I have had splitting headaches the majority of each day. My concentration is very limited. I have been extremely forgetful and airheaded. I hope that's from the lack of alcohol ;)
Last night was my first 'dry drunk' experience since I quit drinking. I didn't realize it until I woke up this morning. 'Dry drunk' is an actual term that defines the bodies ability to actually mimic being drunk without consuming alcohol. I never felt drunk, but when I woke up this morning, I felt like I had a rough night. When I woke up my neck hurt, my head was pounding, and my daughter told me I was snoring. I overslept and I didn't get a chance to pack my husbands work lunch. My sinuses hurt and began to pop. My jaw hurt like I had ground all night. Was a great experience! I've been waking so refreshed and have been on cloud 9 all day long. Having a 'dry hangover' is much better than a dry drunk. It reminds me of the discomfort I'm missing. Weird.
Another new sober experience happened two nights ago. I actually had a dream about being sober! When I was drinking, I'd have horrible drinking nightmares quite often. A couple of nights ago, I had my first sober dream ever. I mean, I dreamed of being at a party with friends and sisters. Everyone was drinking and I wanted to leave. My middle sister wanted to stay with the group and continue to the bar. I advised her that was a bad idea since they were all wasted, but she didn't listen. I left the party and went to my church fish fry instead. My mom and dad and grandma were there. I was so peaceful and happy. I even ran into my ex treatment counselor who moved away. I proudly gave her a business card with my blog address on it.
How cheesy! I do NOT carry business cards with my blog on it. It was really neat to finally make a decent decision subconciously. I believe this is huge progress in my recovery. Today I visit my doctor as a follow up to my Day 1 appointment when I asked him to prescribe me Antabuse. I am so excited to thank him! Tonight I will blog Day14 and I will be caught up. I will let you know what the doctor says!
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Did I ever tell you that 'you do my heart good'. Once again, thank you for sharing and God's Blessings to you until tomorrow's blog.
Thanks so much for sharing! You are truly an inspiration for all of us, I hope you realize how proud of you everyone is! We're all so blessed that you've been brought into our lives. Stay strong, and I'm always here for you!
You do know this is your 15th day sober, right??? I think you skipped a day. You last had a drink on March 24 and it's the 7th of April. Unless I'm doing my math wrong - but I want you to get credit for every darn day you beat this monster! :)
My goofy husband says you should carry biz cards to win stuff---at stores/restaurants where they have the drop your card and win bowls. lol. Anyway, my thoughts today are that I enjoyed, painfully reading your story yesterday of how drug & alcohol use came to be. Great lesson for parents. Be present & insist your kids STAY in after-school activities. Something. Doesn't have to be what we love, just something THEY enjoy. i do feel God intentionally placed addiction in your lap---a plan and one of your purposes in life is to encourage, inspire and help counsel others who r going through difficulties with drugs/alcohol/etc. You are smart. You understand people. And you have a heart of solid gold that is just starting to shine through as the ugliness known as drunkenness slowly dissolves and goes away forever. You don't have to be a counselor or therapist to help others--you can do what you r best at (which for u is hard to choose since u r good at absolutely everything) while lifting up others as you go through your life. This blog is genius. I can't recall a time in my life I have been prouder of u. Your first absolutely true attempt to change your life forever and be unselfish for the people who deserve your unselfishness the most.
Ask your doctor about something for the headaches. Maybe you could take over-the-counter Aleve cuz it has caffeine in it and caffeine always helps my headaches.????? I loved your dream. That's a great sign for you! Keep up the great work. Lots of hot showers help too for the headaches and back/temple rubs. Tell your hubby he has to give you one every night! LOVE YA!
Oh, yeah, about the church fish fry. Ooh, that would've been a tough call for me. lol.
My Dearest B:
You don't know how nice it was this last holiday to have you around being alcohol-free. You are so relaxed and you look great! It made me so conscious of what we, as a family, consume. I noticed there were only two people having an occasional beer throughout the day. It was wonderful!! I always think twice now when I want something cold to drink........."What would B do?"........I've never read anything like this blog before in my life! I also did not realize that you had such a tragic fight with drugs. It makes me admire you so much more for who you are, what you've become. I could never be as strong as you! You are truly an inspiration, and we are so fortunate and proud to have you in our family!! We love you! J&P
I have to admit...this e-AA blog is a great idea...it makes you accountable...ministers to others...reminds us all of how easy it is to turn our 'will' over to something or someone....thank you for sharing your battles and your victories. I hope and pray for you to win the war. I enjoy your way with words and your wit.
You can be so proud of yourself for winning this huge personal struggle while also being such an inspiration to so many.I talked to your husband today and he sounded very proud of you.With your birthday approaching it could be one of the best years of your life.Take care,Jackie
Psalm 119:9-17.
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