I’ve been sober for 30 days. I’ve been sober for 30 days. This is the longest conscious effort I’ve ever made! (other than being pregnant with my daughter, but that was simple) Today I would have received a 30 day medallion if I physically attended an AA meeting.
I’m awarding myself a virtual 30 day medallion because 30 days IS a big deal. Yeah me! Congratulations!
My doctor’s mother received her 30 years medallion this year. Wow! I don’t even want to think that they make those. My anxiety about ‘forever’ kicks in…go to your happy place, one day at a time, one day at a time:)
When I reached this milestone I’ve gotten unenthused about the whole thing. It just seems so yesterday to me. It feels like 6 months, but it’s only been 30 frickin’ days! Then at the same time I think, OMG it’s been 30 days! It’s such an off realization.
I’ve always had a poor concept of time. For instance, I see these people on The Biggest Loser lose 285 pounds in one year and I think holy shit! I could sacrifice a year and go through boot camp to lose an entire me! But then the next day I’ll see some weight loss supplement infomercial where some lady lost 40 pound in 3 months and I think I could NEVER do that. I guess if I took it one day at a time, I’d be 1/ 3 of the way there by now.
I’m still waiting for that exercise addiction to kick in. The only addiction that I’ve developed was one to Reese’s Puffs cereal, diet coke, and sugar. I need sugar! My body just craves sugar. I never craved it before because I got it from the bottle every night.
I did have a craving today but I popped open a can of diet coke and that knocked it right out of me. I’m going to continue blogging because I haven’t even put a dent in the twelve step program yet. I want to continue to follow several different treatment methods because it cannot hurt me. The ‘experts’ created these programs and tools so I will put my trust in them. After all, the third times a charm, right?
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Congratulations!!!!
O.K. I have to read yet another page of Live Like You Where Dying forwarded by Tim McGraw.
Right now, even as you read this page,
you may be feeling something,
hearing something, a call to action.
a still small voice whispering.
"You Can Do It'.
You have everything
you need already inside you.
You have spirit that has never been tested, muscles you have never used.
It's all there waiting...
May You Live Like You Were Dying.
I love you 'Survivor'.
I was with Survivor putting a Bunk bed - book shelf - desk - drawer system together yesterday. All in pieces we had to clean it, figure out what to do with all those pieces. Yeaks! We did it, we did it, and we made for one very happy lil girl. We had the most delicious brownies to give us energy to keep on figuring it out. You had a diet coke and were as calm and happy as a lark. I on the other hand caved to my habit. Lord put that spark, that fire (literally) in my heart and not in my mouth. Anyways, thanks for a fun day.
Congratulations, Survivor!!! Thanks for taking us along on this journey with you!
30 day and 30 nights, 720 hours, 43,200 freakin' minutes...that's a pretty big step for 'one step at a time'...way to go...just say no...dont wanta feel low...look at me grow....who says I'm slow...in my mind I know....it ain't just for show...savin' me dough....gonna get a new fro'...cant think of any mo'...love you.
Whenever you read a good book, it's like the author is right there, in the room, talking to you, which is why I don't like to read good books. ~Jack Handey
Way to go!!! You are a determined woman and I know that you can do whatever you put your mind to and want to accomplish. You Go Girl!!!
Yeah sista! 30 days is a long time. I am SO PROUD of you. I feel it in my heart that you are gonna succeed this time. You have succeeded this time! I can't wait until day 60 when you give yourself a day 60 reward! You have impressed me with your will to succeed. Keep it up and keep on blogging! Thanks.
Where is Day 31??? Day 32??? Waiting and wondering??? Please say it's so.
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